Is it possible to be inside a sound? I want that. To let it envelop, surround and integrate itself into me. Is it the timbre that attracts me or a sounds movement; with the expectations it suggests?

I think timbre can connect us to something greater, its color seducing us depending on what we’re ready to hear.

This photo is one of James Turrell’s installations from his Ganzfeld series. He creates these spaces that completely disorient the viewer, you feel like you’re moving through a fog of color. Its disorienting and revealing. It reveals our perception, how we see, sense and interact with our environment. Theres something seductive and frightening in it, all at the same time. Its power is scary, but also magnetic, pulling me toward it.

My music wants to go this direction but I resist, because of fear of its power. I can hear it moving to a more ambient vibe, pulling me toward it, beckoning, pushing me in a particular direction. My response? I push back because I’m scared. Theres too much power there…

I also worry about what others will think. I know it doesn’t matter, yet I spend a lot of time worrying about it…